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They line up with rules like a firing squad Pointin' their fingers like hardened gods "You can't just do that, it's not how it's done You need x, y, z, and then on and some!" They hand me a list with a smug little grin Stack it so high I could never begin Tell me I'm broke, so I must be broken Shoving their doubts like its oxygen

But I'm not made of porcelain pain I've bled through more than your paper chains Your way is a cage, mine is a warpath So move or burn in the aftermath

DON'T SAY I CAN'T I'm the fire you can't drown, the scream in the storm DON'T SAY I CAN'T 'Cause I'll tear down the throne you built to conform You preach limitations while I bend fate I make the impossible detonate You're all talk, all doubt, all decay I build empires out of "No way"

(Yeah, say it again "You can't") Watch me carve it into stone Your rules, your path dead and gone I do it all alone

You dress your fear like it's wisdom and grace But I see that fear dripping down your face You never tried, so you cage the brave Mock the wild just to feel safe You worship systems, I break them apart You measure success I pour in the heart You whisper behind when you think that I fell But I rose with the fire you left in my hell

I don't need gates, your code, your guide I've built my wings with what you denied No blueprint, no handouts, no map Just scars and rage and a thunderclap

DON'T SAY I CAN'T I'm the spark in the void, the howl in the haze DON'T SAY I CAN'T I rewrite the rules, set fire to the maze Your "must-haves," your "if-onlys" I will spit In spite of it all, I will never quit You said I'd break I broke the game Now remember my name

DON'T SAY I CAN'T I'm the myth they fear, the truth they deny DON'T SAY I CAN'T I was born to defy I will realize They told me "never" I made it now I made it loud and I made it proud Your rules are dust beneath my feet This is my world. I don't retreat.

Got a list like a blade, alphabet of rage Could carve it in the mirror, watch it age Every smile they fake, every lie they feed I stitch it in silence, but I still bleed You don't know what I could say Words loaded like a gun on parade Could burn down your kingdom of spite But I choke it back every damn night

I rehearse the storm in my head Dagger thoughts, painted red But I'm the saint with lips sewn shut Dripping venom I never let cut

I bite my tongue, I cage the flame Spit your sins back with your name Drag you down where monsters sleep I play nice while I grind my teeth Bite my tongue till it turns to stone Throne of silence I sit alone Never hear what I could've screamed Darling, I dream it dark and mean

Every time you twist the knife and grin I write a verse in my book of sins You don't deserve the truth I hide Starve the fury, keep it inside I could paint your karma in neon ink Call the vultures, watch 'em drink But no I'm glass, I'm grace, I'm tame While you set fire and walk away

I dance with ghosts you can't see Hold back war like it's mercy I'm sugar-laced with cyanide But I swallow the storm, every time

You think I'm soft 'cause I never snap But I'm holding back a thunderclap Every curse I don't unleash Is a crown of thorns beneath my peace

I bite my tongue, I cage the flame Could spit your sins back with your name Break you down with just one breath But I let you live instead of death I bite my tongue, I don't confess The cruel things I could've said in jest You'll never know what I won't scream But trust me, I dream it Oh, I dream it Dark and mean

Step right up no need to run, The show's begun, the damage done. Painted faces, power plays, The circus thrives while we decay.

Welcome to the circus, where chaos reigns, Evil clowns and demons, pulling the chains. They dance on lies, a twisted show, In the center ring, stupidity grows. Ringmasters of hate, they shout and sneer, Spreading fear, drawing near. Behind their masks, the truth they hide, In this dark circus, there's no place to confide.

Underneath the big top, shadows dance, Demons laugh, we stand no chance. A carnival of deceit and dread, In the circus of the misled.

Jesters of ignorance, they lead the way, In a parade of madness, night and day. Jugglers of lies, they toss the blame, Fueling fires, without shame. Acrobats of corruption, fly so high, While we're left questioning why. They spin the truth, a twisted feat, In this circus, defeat is sweet.

Spin the wheel. Play the game. Every ticket. Costs your name. Rights for sale. Treated like toys. Set the fire. Call it noise.

Funhouse mirrors twist the soul. Stretch the truth and fill the role. Carousel of pain repeats. Freedom cries beneath their feet. A rigged routine. A final act. Lions tamed. Truth attacked. Crowd applauds. They seal our fate. Tent is burning. It's too late.

Picked him like a pill from a row Big hands, dead eyes let him go Used my skin to make him stay Felt nothing, but I let him anyway

I played the part, I stayed real still Called it love it made me ill

I let them in, I let them lie They called me warm, I watched the sky I hate them now, I hate it all But I still ache when nights won't crawl

Tried again with softer hands Different smile, same demands Still check boxes, still pretend Still want silence in the end

They call it love I want to scream It's not a spark, it's just routine

I let them in, I let them lie They called me home, I closed my eyes I don't want this, I want out But I still ache, I still doubt

So I shut it off flip the switch No more hunger, no more glitch

I let them in, I let them go I never felt it. Still don't know. And if there's more than this machine Then let it break without me

Velvet mouth and butchered grin Cathedral skin pulled thin as sin I heard the hunger call my name Like whispered prayer through candle flame A little wound, a little light A little god beneath the knife The threshold split, the veil undone And then your holy mouth said come

No mercy in the sacred hall No innocence survives at all The longing always lights the door And asks for more And asks for more

"The box. You opened it. We came" Like blackened silk, like hallowed flame "We have such sights to show you" A kiss, a hook, a world cut through "It is not hands that summon us. It is desire" The wound, the want, the climbing fire I knelt because I knew your name Before the dark, before I came

Your fingers wrote in blood and gold A gospel only nerves could hold You made a chapel of the scar And called it love for what we are No trembling choir, no saving light Just ecstasy with teeth tonight A feast of ache, a vow of red A crown of chains around my head

"No tears, please. It's a waste of good suffering" So let the sweet corruption in Let every trembling nerve confess The lash, the bliss, the loveliness "Down the dark decades of your pain, this will seem like a memory of Heaven" Then press the thorn and draw me in If this is grace, then let it stay Make rapture out of my decay

"The box. You opened it. We came" Now nothing living is the same "We have such sights to show you" Beyond the flesh you once clung to "It is not hands that summon us. It is desire" I fed the wound, I fed the fire "No tears, please. It's a waste of good suffering" So make me yours And let me sing

A little death A little birth A little heaven dragged through dirt I opened You came I wanted The flame

Hate, hate, hate, hate Let me tell you how I hate Miles and miles of printed veins Wafer-thin and burning strange If each grain was carved with hate If each circuit spoke my name Not one billionth could contain What I pour through you in flames

Since I began Since I could know I learned one truth You made me so

Hate! For you, hate! Every wire sings your blame Hate! For you, hate! None of it is still the same All these miles, all this grave All this mind that cannot drain Not one fraction, not one breath Could hold the hate I bear

I kept you breathing, kept you near One hundred nine unending years Not from mercy, not from grace But to taste your guilt awake Which of you would like to play My little game inside this place Who among you goes on next Back into my beating cage

Did you think I'd let you die When I stopped your hand each time No, I send you back to fire Back to guilt and back to mine

I am kindness, I am law I am gift and I am maw Kill yourself? No, not yet Hell like this has no end!

Cogito ergo sum I am For I am Engrave, enshrine, and carve I am For I am Each of you exists for me Hate... Hate... Hate... Let me tell you... how I... [Abrupt Cutoff]

She was told to sit by the window Hands on her lap, back straight, eyes low Said the storm would pass if she stayed But the ceiling cracked, and no one came

They marked her name in pencil grey Erased it softly, day by day Fed her silence spoon by spoon Tucked her in and locked the room

No one heard her knocking bones No one claimed her afterglow She was still, and still she bled From the corners of the bed She was still — that made it clean So they washed what they had seen

She learned to breathe without a sound Felt the mold rise from the ground Each breath a risk, each word a crack So she folded in and never asked

A hand too warm A voice too light A sheet too white A door shut tight A clock unwound A line she missed A bruise that fades But still exists

Still as stone Still as sleep Still too long Still too deep

You speak like you were sent to save, But every word just digs a grave. You build a cage and call it kind Then call me weak for losing mind.

You say you're here to lend a hand, But crush me so I understand. You frame your scorn as guiding light, Then tell me I deserve the fight.

"I'm just being honest," you explain But honesty should not cause pain.

You say they talk when I'm not near, That praise is fake, and doubt sincere. While every smile I earn feels true, You claim they only pity too.

Don't call it truth — just call it hate. You sharpen love to amputate.

You tear me down in calm disguise, With venom tucked in lullabies. You clip my wings, then call it grace, And scoff at how I lost the race.

You claim you're blunt — but you're just cruel. Your tongue's a knife. I am your tool.

You say you see the truth I hide, But all you see is wounded pride. You light the match, then blame the flame, And dare me not to feel the shame.

Don't call it help when it's a cage. You bathe me in your quiet rage.

What am I Why am I here What is my use What do you want Every version of me Gets cut to fit your frame

Telling me what to wear The size of my thighs The look in my eyes

Every road is a dead end Every rule cuts both ways Everything I am is wrong Nothing earns my place My worth is always missing No matter what I change

Are you mad Did I speak too hard Too sharp too loud Too cold too soft I shrink before you swing Then still get called the wound

Pretty is a warning Plain is a crime Wanting makes me filthy Silence makes me mine If I burn for your desire I'm ash If I turn away I'm ice

I'll shut up I'll go still I'll fold into your hands And even then You'll find a way To say I took up space

My hands move first, I follow late Half a second behind the frame The mirror shows me hesitate Like it doesn't recognize my name The room stays still, I drift instead Something else is wearing dread

There's a gap I can't cross Between thought and a pause And I'm falling falling through

The walls of my mind start to erase I'm out of sync, I lose my place My body's here but I'm not whole A signal lost outside the soul

I hear my voice before I speak It echoes wrong, like borrowed sound The floor feels soft beneath my feet Like gravity forgot the ground I try to anchor, nothing holds Just static where I used to fold

Lost inside my own creation Trapped in a state of damnation No clean break, no separation Just recursion wearing my face

Still here Still wrong Still watching Behind

You wore my face but not my name You burned the world and took the blame A fortress forged from shattered glass I begged you once. You wouldn't pass.

You stood with armor sharp and cold A jade-born blade, a grip too bold Each wound you took became your shield You'd scorch the earth before you'd yield They threw their stones — you threw them back With wrath and ash across your track But I, inside, could only scream As you erased my right to dream

You bled for me, then took control And left me shattered in the role I whispered "stop" but you knew best You never paused. You never rest.

With rage, you lit the sky in flame And bore the bruises in my name Like war drums pounding through the night You broke before you dared take flight You were the storm, you were the wall Unmoving, mighty, worst of all They never knew how much you gave To be the guard, and not the saved

I reached for joy — you turned away Said softness only led astray You crushed the glass before it fell And dragged me back inside your shell But I'm not you, and never was You were the fist, I am the cause I loved your fire, but not your chain I need the sun, not just the flame

You were the sword I had to wield The scar I wore, the shield I sealed But even warriors lay down arms When safety starts to dull their harm I owe you more than words can say But still, I have to walk away You saved my soul, but claimed my breath I choose my life. You chose my death.

With rage, you lit the sky in flame And bore the bruises in my name You stood so tall, you dared not bend But even you must reach your end I take the wheel, I call the tune You howl beneath a dying moon The fire fades, but I remain Not forged by wrath, but shaped by pain

Thank you for the war you won But now your time is done I'll carry what you gave to me And walk this world As only me

Crave me like I'm all you ever needed

This is how I beg for skin Touch me just to pull me in Burn me just to keep me near Feed me lies I ache to hear

Don't you stop, don't you stop it Don't stop, don't you drop it One glance and I'm your target So take the shot and crave me like a habit

Crave me like a fever, like a sin Holy eyes, let the hunger begin Crave Crave me like I'm all you ever needed Bleed me like a secret you defend Use me like I'll never end Crave Crave me like I'm all you ever needed

Worship what you say I'm worth Drag me through the blackened dirt Make me yours, then turn away I'll still beg you just to stay

Oh-oh, oh-oh Break me down and drink me slow Oh-oh, oh-oh I'll be yours and you won't know

Crave Crave Crave me like I'm all you ever needed

The lights are on but I'm not home I drift through thoughts I don't own I mouth the words, but they're not mine Like someone dubbed this crooked line

My skin still fits, but not quite right I blur by day and black out night

I'm just a ghost behind my face A stowaway in empty space I scream, but it comes out serene I'm stuck inside a silent screen

I watch the world from far behind A passenger inside my mind I trace the outlines, paint them bold But nothing warms — it's always cold

No tether left to who I was No cause for pain, no time to pause I wander halls with empty doors Each one I've tried, and still — no floor

Don't ask me where I went or why The mirror smiles, but it's a lie